Wind and Waves

I was going through my emails the other day and I found this one that I thought would be interesting in giving some insight into what it felt like for me to jump from one world into a completely different one.

This is an email I wrote to Colin, an AMAzing person with an AMAazing family. Their family will be in my heat forever,they are deeply inspiring to me.

Colin ~
I’m back in the states. I had a really great time in Kuching and Singapore and then was super excited as the plane landed in San Francisco, California!

It was a beautiful fall day, as if the gods were welcoming me. Blue, blue sky contrasted with the color of the changing leaves, brilliant reds,oranges, yellows and browns. I was soo excited to be home, and in time for my favorite season.
The air was cool and crisp and felt very refreshing to breathe in, especially after the haze of Malaysia and Singapore. I just wanted to stand there and breathe. I had forgotten how refreshing it was to feel cool air.

Dan and I climbed to the top of a mountain overlooking San Francisco, the bay, the bridges. We caught eachother up on our independent lives and savored being in eachoher’s arms.

We drove on Highway 101 for a couple days, winding through dry, colorful land. Visited a winery nestled in the rolling hills of colors, great music accompanied great conversation. We stayed high up in a little lofty log cabin feeling,TREE-HOUSE! at a Bed and breakfast, swang on rope swings, pet horses, hung out with kids (this was a dream place for kids!)

I had dreams of apple pie and warmth from cackling fires and families dancing through my sleep. A deeply satisfying sleep.

Oh man! It was a great time. A dreamy trip, in the blur of that strange space after flying, where your neither here nor there. All that existed were Dan and I and with the beauty/colors/smells of a beautiful fall day in the United States, woven in.

And then…..!

We arrived in Portland. I slept off my jet-lag and woke up to reality and its scaring me a bit!. Its cold and dreary here! And everyone’s lives exist deeply inside their house..WHERE IS COMMUNITY????

My thoughts are winding around and around {in that twenties anxiety} “You have to do something with your life to be good!”
But what to do? What do I want? Why don’t I know? Tons of ideas….but which to pick?!

I can feel I’ve matured a bit and shifted paradigms,which gives way to new thought proccess’s and a different way of relating to the world I find myself in. (every so slight… but noticable)

I feel so far away from Contessa/Miri now. I’m supper curious to hear whats going on. I think I’ll send some emails out and see if I can get any news!

I watched Crystal Blues Dvd yesterday, made me happy to see “that world” I feel like it can slip away so easily.
Anyway I would love to hear from you!
Hope all is well!
Laura